A Story From The Heart

 Things got cold. But I didn’t know it would be ‘freezing’ cold. All I wanted was for you to be there. Especially when I needed most. Tak susah pun. Ambil hati sikit pun jadilah.  What’s all this crap for intimacy if there’s nsa. Where did all the ‘friends’ go? Is this how much I value? Nvm. No point ranting on things to people that see no value in a person.  I just want to be happy and feel appreciated. Life got hard. No joke. Wish I had someone to open up to…without it being used against me, without the need to hide anything, without getting hurt, and most importantly without feeling like my problems are invalid. It matters to me. So if you wanna F around, then GO!

 Nothing to rant today but I had a silly thought recently 😂.  Wouldn’t it be nice to have a partner that literally ’belanja’ I during 12.12 sale?? Lol. I mean I want a lot of things yknow. Even random things like a plush toy or some stickers 🤣 Tapi sebenarnya something that made me feel like this was when I was scrolling a tudung on sale. I just had a thought “kan best kalau I boleh cakap NAK je kat someone”. Hmm Tudung tu tak mahal pun. RM28 je lepas sale. Kan best kalau you belikan I 2-3 helai 🥺. Nanti boleh pakai time pergi kerja ke, p shopping ke, dating ke. Tapi tu angan angan sajaaa. Tak salah kan nadhoossh kuat berangan 🤭 One day I wanna say to the LOML: “Sayang, I nak tudung ni pleaseeee 🙃” **Teringat dulu ada orang sanggup nak tunggu gaji untuk belikan I cincin. Sekarang, nak reply apatah lagi nak cari kita, habuk pun takdak 😂

Hey. It’s only been a week but it feels heavy doesn’t it? I had so much plans. We. But His plans are better. As long as it makes you happy. If you think this is for the best. Nothing else matters.  I wish we had our birthday date I wish we had our cake we talked about I wish we had our night drive I wish we actually celebrated together I came by that night with high hopes. But this time I was already prepared for it. It didn’t hurt like the last time. That’s good right?